Monday, August 31, 2009

When you're wearing a green tuxedo, you dance where they tell you. ~Colonel Potter(M*A*S*H)

I LOVE WRITING!
I DO, I DO, I DO!

Okay sorry. I'm a bit overwhelmed. I just finished editing this scene and I got all worked up. It's the scene where Caelum/Chloe first sees how to use the memory orb to gain her memories from Zirconya. She panics and blacks out. But I love the relationship between her and Maze, the zirconyan guy who's helping/protecting her.

He's such a prick but I know how he's going to be later on so I love it! I feel so bad for my characters though.

I do torture them so!

Poor little sausages. In the end though, they'll be happy.

You know, I'll just post the scene...at least a part of it cuz it's really long. Hold up

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“And Aglahr, you said he taught me things. What did he teach?”

“Everything; math, science, white magic, history. He even taught you to use weapons and I must say, he taught you well. I had watched memories with him after you disappeared.”

“Weapons?” Caelum was excited by the notion. “What weapons?”

“A little bit of everything, but each student focused on one main choice. You have always been remarkable with the bow and arrow. From what I have heard, you have never missed a target. Melanya was very well trained with the sword and Aquin with daggers.”

Caelum never thought of trying archery but she liked the idea now.

“Anyway,” Maze went on, realizing their drift from the subject, “this necklace was made especially for you and your memories. When we find Melanya, she too will have her own memory orb.”

Caelum gazed at the orb as she spoke. “And Aquin as well?”

“No, not Aquin. He is not like you girls; he is an ordinary boy now. Focus on the subject at hand. If you learn to use this orb for yourself, you can watch all the events of your previous life before your very own eyes.”

“What, like a TV?”

Maze frowned. “A what?”

“A television?”

“I’m sorry Caelum but I don’t know what a ‘television’ is.”

Caelum stood up and walked to the large cabinet in front of the bed where she opened the doors and turned on the television that sat behind them. Maze stared at the TV with wide eyes, amazed at what he was seeing.

“It is like the mirrors,” he murmured.

Caelum didn’t know what he was talking about, so she just showed him how to change the channels.

“You see, every channel is different. You can watch the news to see what’s going on in the world or a movie on HBO or anything,” she explained.

“I do not know the meaning of any of those words, but I am fascinated,” he replied. With a shake of his head, he dropped the remote and turned to Caelum. “We are off track again. I must explain these things to you.” He then turned and grabbed the necklace out of the air and placed it in her hand. “Here, you try. Just throw it in the air as I did.”

Caelum looked at the necklace then closed her hand around it and threw it up. It froze, the same way it did when Maze threw it.

She turned to Maze with a giggle. “What now?”

“Give it a moment; just watch.”

She looked to the necklace in wonder gazing at it intently as it remained unmoving in the air. She tilted her head then in an instant, a light shone from the necklace. Caelum jumped back with a cry, bumping into Maze‘s chest.

Holding her tightly in her place, he bent over her shoulder and pointed to the light. “Watch,” he whispered in her ear.

Caelum gazed into the light when pictures began to move like a movie in fast forward. The images were as clear as a television screen.

Caelum licked her lips and swallowed a knot in her throat. “What are they?”

Maze’s hands were on her shoulders as he spoke into her ear. “Memories, Caelum; of your life in Zirconya.”

The images were quickly changing. Each image consisted of a small pale blonde girl with blue eyes; a girl that Caelum knew was her.

“I don’t remember any of this, Maze.”

“It is all right. You will. Let us go to the day you left Zirconya.”

“How do we change it?”

“Just think and it will be.”

Caelum tried to remember her dreams from the previous nights. She tried to remember the room she was in with the six other people. As she remembered, the images changed and her dream began to play before her eyes; everything was according to what she had dreamt.

As she stared, Maze explained who everyone was and what was happening. He showed her the sinstarians and the man who attacked her, learning that he was the great enemy Sireg‘wethyl. She saw Melanya and how Aquin tried to save them.

As she focused on the images before her, they began to form in her mind more clearly.

“Oh my God,” she whispered as her mind recognized them as memories. “I remember this.”

Not only did she remember the events taking place from the orb, but she also remembered the people. She remembered her relationship with each person there, yet she couldn’t seem to remember anything that took place before or after those events. The images “rewound” to when she and Melanya had been pulled into the portal where she watched closely and saw the memory orb come off her neck. Her eye then caught something; another chain was held in her left hand. With a pounding heart, Caelum’s hand found its way to her neck and onto the other necklace; the blue stone.

“My God,” she gasped.

Maze watched her hand, curiously. “What is it?”

“This necklace,” she replied, her gaze remaining on the images. She pointed to Aquin. “That boy gave me this necklace, moments before I was even up on the altar.”

Maze looked at the necklace, then at Aquin in the image. “So that is why you remember him so much more than anyone else. You took something of his with you into the third dimension.” He smiled with a snicker. “I understand now.”

As Caelum watched the pictures move and change, her eyes began to well up. She began to experience many different emotions all at the same time and her heart began to beat faster and faster with each gained memory.

A realization suddenly hit her. Everything that was happening now should be impossible. Another world, magic, a ball holding memories? It was all amazing; too good to be true.

Maze took notice of a change in her eyes and aura and immediately knew something was wrong.

“Caelum, are you all right?”

“This isn’t right,” she blubbered. “This can’t be true. None of this is possible. I must be dreaming. Or, or maybe I’m hypnotized. Yes, that’s it. You hypnotized me. I have to go. I can’t be here. This isn’t right.”

Maze wrinkled his brow in confusion and disappointment. “What do you mean? You remember. I know you remember. No one is hypnotizing you.”

Caelum’s mind began to race as she pushed Maze away and she dashed toward to door.

“Caelum, no!” He called after her.

She ran outside and into the parking lot. Confused, she couldn’t seem to figure out where she was or which direction to run in. A faintness swelled within her beginning at her knees then spread to her head. Everything was framed in blackness that slowly faded to the center when finally all had gone dark.

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Okay, there you go. I hope you enjoy it. Leave a comment if you like. Anyway, I hear the girls waking up so I am returning to real life!

Until next time,
your loving blogger,
SHAZBOK

I've gotten "Thank you" notes from people I said I'd never see again. – Frank(M*A*S*H)



*sings* The best part of waking uuuup! Is Folgers in your cuuuuup!
Well...it used to be. i can't seem to drink coffee anymore. If I do, my stomach is goin nutzoid all day. I don't know why. I used to drink it all the time.

Anywho,
it's Monday again. I'm feeling pretty lousy right now. I'm tired but I feel sick. I want to write but I need to wake up more before I start. And, assuming life will treat me the way it usually does, when I am awake enough, the girls are gonna wake up right when I get comfy with my laptop. And my time for writing will be gone. Until their naptime.

Here's my list for what needs to be done before their nap this afternoon:

Dress the girls.
Make breakfast.
Feed the girls.
Clean the girls.
Clean the mess.
Wash the floors.
2 loads of laundry.
Make some tax calls.
Give the girls a snack.

Now, this may not seem like a big deal. Think about it. Rizzo has just recently begun walking so she's wobbly and falls and cried. Odie just cries. Odie always wants me to draw something for her or watch her new trick or listen to her(i love it lol) while Rizzo is constantly getting into things she shouldnt be in. Then there's "Mommy, chips! Mommy juice! Mommy outside!
Mommy! Mommy! MOMMY!!!!"
Understand, I am not complaining. It's all part of life with kids. I just want to put out there that even stay at home moms have a lot to do and worry about. And that's not even mentioning that I wake up two to six times a night because Rizzo is teething.

Maybe that's why I feel lousy today. I haven't slept in two weeks. I have my Folgers here beside me but it's cold now and as I mentioned before, my stomach does not take it too well lately.

Anyway,
I'm putting together an idea for one of my next books. Idk what I'll be titling it as of yet but it's going to take place in the days when an infection spreads throughout the world. It doesn't kill people but it does all sorts of crazy things to them, depending on where they are and what they're doing at the time of infection. Some people turn out zombie-like while others are vampire-like. Some even get rooted into the grown like dryads. Of course there are the few uninfected people who went to live underground, forming armies and what not to rid the world of the infected. The thing is, though, that the main character is infected and throughout the story, you don't know who're the bad guys. The infected or the uninfected? Whooooo knooooows?

Okay well I think it's gonna be a good story. It'll involve giant carnivorous fish and dinosaur-like reptiles, physical pain, and of course, a lil bit o' loooove. If you're wondering, I got the idea from an extremely vivid dream I had some time ago.

Anyway, I must be off. Life calls. Until another time,

you're loving blogger,

SHAZBOK

Saturday, August 29, 2009

It's the first time I've seen orange juice labeled "freshly killed". – Hawkeye(M*A*S*H)

Hello all,

another day in the murky deep called my mind. Not much is going on in it today. That's why it's murky. Normally it would be a clear-skied deep. Still dark, but not so murky. I will show you some examples. Observe:

On a normal day, my mind would be clear. The passing of flying ideas would easily be seen and captured.


Today though, for unexplicable reasons, my mind is a bit...well....like this...


It's very frustrating. Honest.
Maybe it's because I already know that I won't have the time I'd like to work on my writing. Weekends normally take away any possibility of me sitting down and putting my mind to it. I'm not too fond of weekends. Unless I have a babysitter and can take my laptop somewhere to work on my things for a few hours.
*sigh*
If only.
Anyway, I must be off. It's time to put these hands to work around the home. As much as I can, at least.
Until later,
You're loving blogger,
SHAZBOK

Friday, August 28, 2009

Your picture's in my wallet and I'm sitting on it. And if that isn't love, I don't know what is. ~Frank Burns(M*A*S*H)



Friday. It's here. Already. I can't believe it! Where DOES the time go? ( i so want that cat)

I'm slightly irritable today so...I won't be posting much of anything right now. I still have a full cup of coffee to go. Rizzo went to sleep, finally, after waking up at 6:30. Now Odie is awake, eating her breakfast. (i shall dub my toddler, Odie.) Odie has now reached the point of being the eaiser kid to deal with. I find that she's less needy. Rizzo will get there soon enough. But she's teething so I'm giving her some room to be cranky. She's allowed lol poor little sausage. Ah, ok, I'm gonna go check if I got any reply from any agent. Enjoy your Friday everyone!


Your loving blogger,

SHAZBOK

Thursday, August 27, 2009

A device is yet to be invented that will measure my indifference to this remark. – Hawkeye(M*A*S*H)

You ever meet someone in your life that you just...can't stand looking at?
I don't know about the rest of the world, but I know I've met three. That's right. Not just one annoyance, but three. What makes me this way, you ask? Well, it's the thought behind the things they do. They think they're better than the rest of the world. They think they're God's gift to men. They think everything they say and do is right and they brag about it.



Why are people like that? Don't they realize how bad they make themselves look to the rest of the world?

The worst part is, the fact that they're all two-faced. They smile and wave and giggle when you're watching, but don't turn your back. Or, just grow eyes on the back of your head so you can see them point and sneer.

I'm sure I'll get over my disgust toward those women eventually. One, inparticular, I haven't even seen or heard about for years but I still cringe just thinking about her. There was a history there though. These other two haven't done anything particularly against me but it's the actions that speak louder than words.

I s'pose you've noticed my MOOD. Forgive me. This too, shall pass.

You're loving blogger,
SHAZBOK

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Marriage isn't all that it's cracked up to be. Let me tell you, honestly. Marriage is probably the chief cause of divorce. ~Frank Burns(M*A*S*H)

Wednesday! A.K.A Hump Day! (get your mind outta' the gutter)
I didn't get a chance to post yesterday. It was either post or revise Zirconya's beginning. You can imagine what I chose. But hey, I think it's coming along wonderfully. Well, it's already GONE along since it's done, I'm just trying to capture the reader from the beginning, minus the confusion.

I was talkin to one of my buddies yesterday, and we got into the conversation about writing. And I realized, again, how excited I get when I talk about how I get excited about writing. HA! It's AWESOME. And then I also realized how much people don't understand what a writer goes through when writing a book. I don't think anyone ever thinks about how much emotion the author puts into it. Think about it. Here's a quote I think may help readers understand:


"Writers aren't exactly people. They're a whole lot of people trying to be one person." F Scott Fitzgerald.
Bravo. Diggin' the 'do, Scotty. Totally.
It's true, though. I mean, you have all of these characters with their own personality; likes, dislikes. You have to know everyone's weaknesses and strengths. You should see me when I write an argument between two main characters. I get all worked up because I know the point of view from each character and you have to write it in a way that one character disagrees with the other character and they each get angry with the other so the writer, me, ends up getting angry on both sides! It's an amazing feeling; such a rush!
I s'pose it's not easy to understand if you're not the one doing it. But I tried to explain.
Anyway, I am off to work on Zirconya some more while the girls sleep. The house is clean after I went clean-happy yesterday, lunch is ready for when they wake up so I have time to enjoy myself a bit. FINALLY.
Until next time,
Your loving blogger,
SHAZBOK

Monday, August 24, 2009

Nobody can get the truth out of me because even I don't know what it is. I keep myself in a constant state of utter confusion. ~ Col. Flagg (M*A*S*H)

Hello all,
I tried to clean while the girls nap. Not a good idea. Rizzo almost woke up cuz she wakes up to EVERY LITTLE SOUND. It's hard to get anything done in that case. By the by, my daughter's name is not actually Rizzo. As I've stated in a previous post, it's simply what I dubbed her for my blog. Because I can.
So anyway, I decided to write. I finished a new beginning to my book since it tended to confuse some people at first. I tried to make it a little more exciting and interesting and hooky. Once absolutewrite gets up and running again, I'll see what the public thinks about it.


On another note, I'm trying to get over my addiction to soda. I drank water all day yesterday. I was proud of myself today until I looked in my right hand and saw I had unthinkingly poured and drank a can of Pepsi. Curse it.

It's just SO good. Especially when eating pizza or some sort of heavy food. It gives me the tingles.


You know, I think everyone should blog. Not just to make me seem a bit less crazy but just because. It should be a big thing like Facebook or Myspace. Whatever happened to Myspace? It just disappeared. No one cares about it anymore I s'pose.


OH! Let's play:

I'm criuuos how mnay plpoee can raed tihs wohuitt dcfiuiftly.


Okay that was fun.

Good LORD what should I write about? Give me a topic, dear readers, before I fall into a sleepy state of typelessness. Yeah that doesn't make sense. Not everything in what I write, does it now?

Here's something:

Top ten movies on my list(in no particular order):
1. Jurassic Park
2. Lord of the Rings (all)
3. The 10th Kingdom
4. Pan's Labyrinth
5. Minority Report
6. The Matrix (just the 1st one)
7. Pride and Prejudice
8. War of the Worlds
9. Robin Hood: Men in Tights
10. X-Men (all of em, but X2 is the best)

If you haven't seen all of these, you don't know what you're missing.
Until later...when I have worthy words to be shared,

Your loving blogger,
SHAZBOK